So what is the big deal with saying Happy Holiday’s instead of Merry Christmas? What is Christmas anyways. Christmas is the the day that we celebrate the birth of Christ. Thus the first 6 letters of the word Christmas. When you take Christ out of Christmas what do you do?
To answer the title, yes, the Bible does call a bat a bird. But before you think the Bible is contradictory (and therefore shouldn’t be trusted), I want to clarify the context surrounding the passage and the history of taxonomic naming.
Have you ever gone on a long bike ride, jog or had a hard work out? near the end when you are worn out you tongue actually starts to feel sticky and you are ravenously thirsty you start to fantasize about a snow cone!! the water in your bottle cant come out fast enough, you think about eating a whole watermelon in a fashion that would make the Tasmanian devil look mild. This is thirst!
Have you ever been in a group of people who are having a heated debate. It could be over anything really politics, a disagreement in class, or maybe a business meeting. People are making their points and the level gets louder and louder. You even see the veins in peoples foreheads bulging. The pace of the conversation is moving quicker and quicker and the mood is hostile and violent. No one is really listening to anyone.
A week ago today I woke with great excitement and great anticipation! My baby should be born that night and I was to pick him up this evening or at latest in the morning! I headed to work with the brand new car seat in the car and waited for the call when we could get him! It was an exciting day!
Bad things happen, life is hard and you will have times of sadness and times of mourning. the Bible tells us this in Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8, it tells us there is a time for everything eve death, morning, and tearing down. However there is a flip side to every one of those there is also a time for rejoicing, new birth and building things up.
To some this question may seem obvious: Of course God loves everyone equally! However, as with any good apologist, it isn’t okay to assume these questions are so obvious. 1 Peter 3:15 tells us to have an answer for everything, especially questions that come so close to the central character of God.
I apologize from the start that this will be a raw blog from a place of hurt, if it is rambling I apologize. The thought did cross my mind just to skip blogging today, but the best time for a Christian to show their true colors and expose their God is from the place where we are at our darkest, most hurt and least capable to do it on our own.
For those of you who have followed this blog you know for weeks I have written from an excited place of anticipation! A place that spoke of God’s wondrous gifts and blessing from a place of abundance. Today, I want to I write you from a place of a broken heart, that is still very blessed. The excitement of the last few weeks was in anticipation of new life, and growth in my family and it was centered around the coming of my brand new son into our family! I had a name, several carefully picked out clothes and things for his nursery, even a fully packed diaper bag and car seat in the car. This afternoon I was going to pick him up and bring him home. But, plans changed drastically he was not to be my son.
You see my son was coming to my family through adoption but his parents were too in love to let him go. His parents who once thought they couldn’t take him have now found a way. This is a day of rejoicing for their family and a dark day of sorrow for mine. I have a closed nursery door that breaks my heart to walk past and a pile of thank you cards from my shower that I can’t bring myself to write. My time of rejoicing has turned to an empty hole. Oddly enough in my aching pain I have a peace, and I’d even venture to say a joy. I am feeling blessed even in my loss.
I can only credit this feeling to my loving God, and heavenly father. Yes, I have cried, even wept more than I ever have over anything in my life in the last 24 hours.. But, I have never felt more loved, supported and lifted up in any other situation. My church family, my biological family, and my friends have rallied around to show the true love of a savior that has been a healing balm on my deepest hurt. This is a true peace in my pain.
I have an underlying excitement that I can’t seem to explain as I know that for every major heart break, every disappointment God has a bigger plan and a larger purpose, I have an excitement that God will do something beyond me because my dear husband and I have lived through this loss. I don’t know what it is, I don’t know if it is just part of a testimony that will inspire someone or if it will give me the permission to share my faith with someone who would never listen in any other situation. Whatever it is I know God will use it.
Today, I am mourning and I am taking my time to let the grief run it’s course. However I know that I am a child of the one true king, I know I am part of the family of Christ and I know that this is only for a season and better days shall come. I know God will make something beautiful of this. I praise him for the peace in the pain.
Thank you all who are reading this who have shared your love, stories and more than anything your prayers. You have truly been a blessing, though you may feel helpless and wish you could do more you have done more than you would ever know. Thank you.
For those who are reading from your place of grief, I hurt with you and I pray that you will cling to your lord and savior, find a church family to support you and begin on your journey to healing.
Again, I find myself waiting. If you have read this blog in the past you may have run across one or two blogs that talk about my impatience when waiting. It is something that is not easy for me. I usually start out strong, full of faith and know God is going to work things out, then the minutes turn to hours, then more hours and then sometimes days or more. As the wait wears on me I start to find my faith shaking. I find myself getting wearied and worried.